I HAVE A HOUSE!!!!
I have a HOUSE!!!
I HAVE a house?!?!?
I have for the first time in my life, a place all to myself
to do whatever I want. I'm free to design it, to paint rooms different shades
of pink. I get to make it reflect my personality, my style, and showcase what I
can do as an interior designer. And, I
get to do it all myself. Prove to myself, and the world, that I can do
anything, of course.
I have spent 3 weeks sitting in overwhelm paralysis. I think
about what needs to be done. I write to do lists for each room (the upstairs
suite only has 25 things that need to be done.) I come up with different game plans to get rooms finished.
But, somehow spend the night watching Hulu instead of caulking.
I have even noticed that it's getting harder and harder for
me to get out of bed in the morning. (I do blame the winter cold and lack of
sun, because, ya know it's not me.) Eight to ten hours of sleep at night is
more common than I would like to admit.
Friends tell me it's "Ok." That "You are
going through a lot." Or that "You have a lot on your plate right now."
I have good friends! I do! But I want so very much more than where I'm at right
now! I want to have my dream home when I walk into my house! I want to have a
successful company. I want to have balance of play, work and romance.
I will admit. I am gaining a new perspective about life,
about following your dreams, for not letting anything stand in your way. I also
have a new appreciation for what my clients go through. When your house is in
disarray, when your treasures are packed away and you can only find half of
what you need (and, of course, it is the half you're not looking for,) it
really troughs you out of sync, messes up your daily routine. It makes you feel
less of a person.
So, I'll come up with a new idea. Try a new game plan. Set
another alarm clock placing it farther away in another room. But no matter
what... I'm not giving up. I want this! I'm willing to work for it.
What do you want? What are you scared of? Why don't you join
me, we can take the journey together and help one-another.
