It's been four complete days since I've written a post here. I challenged myself to write an entry every day for 90 days. I started this to see how my writing would evolve (along with my lack of typing skill). To build my confidence in myself. To build a trust with myself by completely something I said I would. (It was all about me, I'm sorry...)
After 30 days, I didn't want to do it anymore. I've always heard for the first 6 months blogging is a lonely place. (That's an understatement!) I will, happily, admit I was getting a nice little (ok Tiny) number of people reading my ramblings (Thank you! And I don't really understand why, but I'm flattered.) I've heard that maintaining a successful, well, anything is all about persistence.
Even knowing that I was going to subtly throw in the towel. I was going to do the "Not answer the phone - he'll get the hint". Who would notice? Who would hold me accountable to my challenge? I was off the hook. (I wasn't even feeling too horribly guilty,)
Then... Then this morning I watched a Ted Talk about Self-Confidence and realized my actions weren't doing that. I was doing just the opposite. I was again, sabotaging myself (also known as killing one's confidence). That's not what I wanted at all. I want to better myself. I want to challenge you and your thinking. I want to make sure we are all the best we can be (no matter what that looks like).
So, I'll continue on here for my 90 days (and hopefully longer). I'll keep listening to my Ted Talks. I'll keep reminding myself of "Why" I'm typing these. And, I'll miss a few more days. I'll feel like stopping again. I'll stop again... But one day... One day I'll, without noticing, I'll have changed who I am. Just a little, but I'll see things differently. I'll be different.
Now I ask you... Who do you want to be? What do you want to achieve that you start, with all good intentions, and then stop, when it gets too hard (or boring)? And most importantly, Are you willing to start it up again?
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