We are a one car household. My husband works a 9-1/2 hour day a 45 min drive away (so, we don't see much of each other). We live off a busy highway street full of gas stations, banks, fast food places, a car dealerships (so, nowhere fun to walk to). I am working at starting up my dream company and working from home in our 1200 sf apartment of white walls that faces north-east and gets no natural light (so, not much in human interactions).
I am NOT complaining about my life (although it really does sound like it). I am totally lucky that I can have my own company (and one day I'll have enough guts to actually get a client) and do something I want to do (not what I have to do). I'm lucky that just outside our "backdoor" we live on a beautiful lake that I love sitting by. I'm lucky I have a home I share with someone who totally loves me and it's in a safe neighborhood and we don't have to worry about break-ins, robberies, or anything bad. My life is Good.
Good. That's it... Good.
Have you been to Home Depot to buy something and they have 3 different options in quality? "Good" "Better" "Best" My life is "Good". It works. People would be happy to be where I am. I have nothing to complain about. (I'm even healthy so I can't complain about that either!) I'm happy. But... I'm not completely truly happy.
I want MORE! So much more... I don't want more stuff. I don't want a bigger house. I want more Life. I don't know how to get it. I feel trapped where I am. I feel buried under all the things that "should" be done. I feel afraid to really jump into my new career. I've magnificently created a Good world where I'm paralyzed by fear. And, I don't know how to break out it.
And THAT is why I'm here every day writing this blog. Because I AM going to break out of where I'm at! I am going to have my dream life. I am going to have a successful company! I am not going to be paralyzed! No, this blog isn't going to be the end-all answer to everything. But it makes me think, wonder. evaluate and be committed to something. It's a start...
Now that I've bared my soul I ask you... Which is your life? "Good" "Better" or "Best"
No matter what life looks like on the outside to others, or how lucky you feel you are, the only thing that matters is - are you really truly happy where you're at?
So your life is Premium Plus Ultra.
ReplyDeleteBut seriously...
I've often wondered about being "happy" with my life or with life in general. Thoreau wrote “The mass of men lead lives of quiet desperation." I don't feel that way, but have known people who have seemed to.
I don't use "happy" to describe my life very often; it seems over used and, as a result, rather trite. Depending on situations, I use words like "satisfied," "pleased," "fulfilled," "loved/loving," "contented," "stimulated," "challenged," "at peace," etc. that seem to me to have more substantial meanings. Maybe that's part of being overly analytic. But I also think they are more attainable on a day-to-day basis than something as nebulous as being happy.
Having said all that, I agree with you about the challenge finding something special in your life - something that takes you to the Marquee level.